the future is a very sad and overwhelming thing to think about when you learn more and more about how fucked up everything in this world is.

i have so many terabytes of hard-drives full of photos. i used to take photos almost everyday for years and all of that is backed up on those hard-drives. it’s crazy to me that there are so many memories in there that i didn’t even know existed. what’s even crazier is just imagining all the other things in my life that are probably just forgotten forever because it was never documented in some way. don’t just document what you think is important celebratory times, document everything; especially if you got kids.

‘addictive behavior’ is often associated with bad. whereas ‘dedication’ is with good. that’s bullshit. they the same damn thing.

whatever you decide to do; pour your fuckin heart into it.

i can’t fuck w people who see ‘change’ as a bad thing. everyone changes; some just more drastically than others. welcome change- and embrace it.

this world is so fucked up. at times; i feel completely hopeless for it.. but for my kids; i have to have some hope, right?

a part of me is so fuckin tired..

don’t get so caught up in the idea that all art needs to have meaning.

growth is a lonely process.

“i’m not the same soul i once was. a lot has changed. a lot had to change. so you shouldn’t expect out of me what i embodied in the past. for that part of me no longer exists.”

this is the one life we got. you got to fuckin live it. you got to try your hardest to make things happen and shoot for the things you want. don’t get caught in the cycle of doing shit you don’t really want to do. that’s only wasting time. time is too valuable to just let it slide by like that.

work on yourself; create more memories; better your craft… this til i die.

life is a bitch… but life also goes on.

do not dwell on yesterdays and do not spend so much time strategizing for a future that is not promised. make the best and make the most out of what is in front of you. i think that’s where a bit of happiness exists.

if your heart’s in it; you will do it forever.

spent about 8 hours working on the truck today. my body is already in pain… whoever said age ain’t but a number is lyin. age ain’t nothin but a bitch.

when that much power falls into the hands of a sensitive ass shit bag; you can only expect chaos. look at our country; it’s a fuckin mess. the cherry on top is that we are still dealing with COVID-19 in the middle of all this.

this country is really something else.