breaking out of the house and studio has been one of the most difficult things to do as of late. after returning from visiting my family in Ohio for 2 weeks; getting back ive just been grindin it out but also trying to figure out some balance since our daughter was also on summer break. wife needed to unplug and im glad she did cause i needed it just as badly so we striked it out to the lake to catch sunset. even the short few hours can do the soul and mind some good.

i think one of the biggest sacrifices one can make is the decision to start a family.

damn, its been almost an entire year since i last posted on here. i remember i used to post on my blog religiously at least once a day… oh how time has changed.

fuck; it’s been rough. i feel like it’s been rough for a while; so even the smallest wins i am super grateful for.

it may seem like i share a lot; but y’all have no idea.. no idea.

don’t take life so seriously. it’s okay to say fuck it and play hookie on your usual day to day sometimes.

i wouldn’t say i am where i want to be mentally and emotionally but i’m coo. i’m coo with being coo; of course not forever but at this very moment, i’m coo.

it ain’t all good; but it’s all good.

i know it’s just preschool for most of us but man… this was a v important phase in her life and she slayed. congrats to this little girl.

you can change your life simply by changing your perspective.

Momentary nights
In your paradise
I need your moments every night
'Cause you make a wrong feel like a right
Open blinded eyes
I don't know what the end is like
But I wanna be there with you

Tell me it's love
You're not just craving my touch
Got some things to clean up, we'll be fine
While you face all your fears
I promise I'll be right here
When you need me, just call anytime

And we can float on a midnight river
We can fly through the moonlit sky
We can float on a midnight river
We can fly through the moonlit sky
For the rest of our lives

if you don’t prioritize getting your mind right; nothing else will be.

growing up in a super small state, all i wanted to do was get out and live a city life. the older i get, the more i want to move out into the middle of fuckin nowhere. especially since COVID; it’s made me realize i don’t really “need” to be around the bustle no more. it used to be my drive and motivation and i influenced from that; but that’s no longer the case.

yo where has the time gone. ever since daylight savings it just feels like the day goes by so damn fast. not feelin it.

i’m in the head space rn where i don’t really have a long term picture in mind. right now i’m just existing. not in a bad way; a good way. living in the moment and trying to make the most of everyday. the world is weird man, i’m still trying to figure this shit out.

make the most out of what you got.

mia: you’re the best dad.

me: aw, thank you baby.

mia: ask me why you are the best dad ever.

me: why am i the best dad ever?

mia: because you’re my dad

(silence)

me: that’s it?

mia: yea

(silence)

me in my head: damn. that’s the realest shit.

what’s done is done; until it’s undone.